Sushi was contemplating it...
he really did not enjoy the ride.
Aloysius' ski lesson this morning was cancelled due to rainy weather:( So we decided to head to the mall for some indoor fun! The New York Sports Club (NYSC) has a "Drop and Shop" service where you can leave your munchkins to play in the gymnastics gym while you shop for $6/hour. It is a lot of fun and the staff there is great. We often let Little A stay there for 1 to 1.5 hours when we go to the mall. We make sure his blood sugar level is nice and high, like today's 176, so he doesn't go low while exercising. (Usually exercise lowers blood sugar levels). His Diabetes kit never stays behind, but for what ever reason, I left it with him for the very first time. And off we went with Sushi:)
About an hour had passed when I get a phone call. It was the NYSC. The girl said that Aloysius' blood sugar was 22. I started running towards the NYSC. As I ran I double checked if she meant 122. "No, it's 22." I ran a little harder. "OK...there is a mesh pocket in his kit...there are gel packs in it...give him one immediately." You know what she said, "He already has it." As I kept running it dawned at me that at 22, little A actually took his own blood sugar (because they don't know how to do that) and managed his own dangerously low blood sugar level. Amazing. When I got there, Aloysius was white as a ghost. I held him for such a long time. His blood sugar levels went up and he was back to himself within 40 minutes. But,my heart kept skipping some beats:( We thanked the staff profusely and even went out and got each of them a Starbucks card as a token of our appreciation. They kept calm, did what they had to and helped support Little A as he took care of himself. So incredibly grateful.
Afterwards came the hard part. The guilt. The re-thinking about ever doing that again. The feeling sorry that Little A would never have a care free life. That his Diabetes in a 24/7 X 365 day job that he has for the rest of his days. Knowing that we will not be able to manage this for him forever and ease the burden on him. Already fearing the day we have to let him walk to school alone or go over to a friend's house on his own or go out with friends or go out on a date....and the list goes on.
I had to step back and realize that we are doing the best we can. I had to acknowledge that we are doing such a good job managing his diabetes and teaching him how to be self sufficient; that, at 5 years old while he was dangerously low (probably feeling very faint and almost delirious), he knew how to take care of himself. That is pretty amazing. And how about that Mother's intuition...leaving the kit for the first time ever! Had it not been there, this could have turned into our first diabetic emergency (911). So kudos to us for doing the very best we can and accolades to little A for being the amazing kid he is!!!!
We love you so much Aloysius!
After it all, little A wanted to go on the Ferris Wheel...
Poor little Sushi,
Love you soooooo much!
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